playin in Provo

So this Wednesday me and my little sister ventured to Provo. It was somewhat of a big deal...she has never driven me in the van/ almost a bus on the freeway. Talk about a leap of faith! About an hour and 15 min we arrived safe and sound in happy valley. She did great. Our first stop was at Coldstone Creamry. Why? I had a blind date planned, and man was I nervous. So I was early, me and my sister went in and when he came she left. Over all the date from my end went great. Conversation flowed well, we have stuff in common, nice guy, and way good looking which did infact intimidate me at first. I hope there is a second date, but for now im going to play it cool and hope he initiates something. Next stop was at my good friend Jessica's house. She is a spit fire on wheels with platinum blonde hair who I had way too much fun with. We chatted about the Ms. Wheelchair pageant since she has done it before (need all the pointers I can get), checked out her brother's old school volkswagon van that he is restoring. Its pretty sweet and I want a pink one now ;). We then got stranded on the bottom floor unable to both of us get into the elevator and back to her place on the second floor.....one of her many nice neighbors that I met eventually helped us in. Next adventure was ordering pizza. First the lines were busy, then I pronounced the pizza I wanted totally wrong, then our order wasnt expensive enough for delivery, then the guy couldnt get through the code and I didnt know it, then it took me forever to sign the receipt and finally he accidentally walked off with the pizza.....all the while Jessica is hiding!!!!! oh it was funny stuff :) cant wait for our next adventure!!!!

So it has been a while…

So first of all this past year of school has been the best year of my life. There are few reasons why. First of all I pretty much had the best roommates that a girl could ask for. We had so many fun times together and adventures. We had little to no drama whatsoever ;) I loved our girls night out and simply being able to talk about anything with them. They also have no idea of the gift of freedom that they let me experience. It is something that most people take for granted and will never truly be able to appreciate it until it is taken away from them, which I hope it never happens to any of you. I also made new friends this year that will always hopefully be in my life. The boys next door as they quickly became known as, also gave me a great Gift. They accepted with all my physical problems and did it in such a graceful way. The best kind of people in the world are those that make you forget yourself that you are in a wheelchair. The boys next door did this. Throughout my whole high school and college life I have never felt accepted by male peers. This gives me hope for future dating. Another great thing that I learned this year, is that I truly have found what I want to do in life. I love those moments when you're sitting in class listening to lecture that really inspires you to want to make a difference and you know that you want to do that for a career. Social work is definitely my calling in life. Well I guess we will see after senior year internship is over ha ha. I also had some great caregivers that made my life day to day so much happier and care free. I hope I am lucky enough to find great ones again. So that was a very quick Roundup of school last year. Yay for junior year!

The Life Philosophy

People are always asking me "Why/how do you have such a positive out look/attitude on life?" It really is so simple. How could I not? I very well could give in say my life is too hard, I cant do all the things I want to do, so why bother doing anything at all. I could choose to stay in bed most the day, never get ready, never go out, or go to school, and never make or move forward in my life. And the sad thing is some people would think that is acceptable for a person like me, but I think otherwise. Life is too beautiful not to love it and want to be all that you can be. Sure it is alot harder to do some things, but I love life to much to waste it. Besides what good would that do me to give up? To fall in a deep hole of depression getting deeper. What good does it do me to feel sorry for myself, and mourn over the things I cant do? It does me not one ounce of good. It is a waste of time and energy that has no happy ending. So I dont go there. I love the things I can do. I find joy in more simple things. And lately I have started to not take anything for granted, and it truely is amazing the difference that makes. So that is why I am mostly happy with life, there is no other way, I love my life and the paths it has taken thus far.

Healing

After over a year long battle with a pressure sore that has included many wound care visits, dr appointments, threats that I will die cuz of it, and hospitalization; I am finally healing. It is nothing short of a miracle. I made up my mind long ago that it never would heal and that would just be that. But then everything and Im not exaggerating when I say everything; in my life began to fall apart. This was all due to overwhelming pain from my sore and then a unexplained back pain I had never experienced. Throughout my struggles in life I have never dealt with overwhelming pain....so this was a new world to me, one I didnt want to be in. Pain medication helped and then one day it didnt. Thats the day my dr called to hospitalize me for what was thought to be a staff infection in my leg. This was the second week of the semester. The next few days were some of the most emotional and horried moments of my life. The lowest of lows I think a person can get to is when all the medical professionals tell you that you will never heal and the long term out comes of this particular situation could be amputation or death. How do you carry on and smile at that? You dont. I thought I would have to bag the semester and give up doing some things I loved. Long story short it never was infected. I was sent home with anti biotics for a bladder infection that also slowly took my back pain away. Though this was the hardest thing yet placed infront of me, the result has been a miracle. My leg is healing, im pain med free, and have not felt this good literally in years. I love my life and those in my life and those watching out for me above.

This experience has humbled me greatly. Made me appreciate everything. Increased my faith. Made me realize dr are not God and miracles always weighout what even the smartest men on earth can do. And I feel for those stricken with horrible pain.

For 2012

So being all cliche I decided I better start coming up with some New Year's Resolutions like the rest of the world. Here it goes:
1. Finish the Book Of Mormon before my birthday in Feb
2. Get all A's and A-'s
3. Get some sort of job in the summer
4. Date like crazy, cuz by Utah standards im old.
5. Speak kinder and quite judging so quickly
6. Dont spend money so easily
7. Read far more

Well this is a simple list but its a start, here is to a New Year!

An 'Easy A' of a Weekend

Holy moly here it is like the 3rd week of school..........jeez thats nuts. Anyway so this past weekend started early for me. After my three hour fine cooking class lab (we made stock, had a knife demo, made salsa that was yuck, and soup!) I boogied it on outta here for home. For the next morning my parents and grandma were on our way to lovely Vernal Utah for a funeral. Yup my great aunt Dona died.......sad but it was time. So 7 hours of driving and a short but sweet funeral, cake and relatives; all in all it was worth missing my friday classes and I wanted to show my respects. She liked me. So that was Friday.

Saturday me and my best friend, Karlie and our friend Emily met up for a movie, Easy A. Why we did, I dont know. Perhaps we were secretly feeling a little devilish, or I would say it was the intriguing previews for this flick. Basically this girl, which I really liked her character and personality she portrayed in this movie, feels bad for some of the guy "losers" of the school and does "favors" for them but really she doesn't. Its pretend, but everyone believes it anyway, so typical of high schoolers these days... Anyway things of course spiral out of control and she soon is known as basically the high school prostitute. The movie carries on and eventually she finds prince charming and she winds up telling the truth via video blog which the whole movie is! Kinda clever i thought... Anyway it definitly was one of those trashy teen movies but it had some funny parts and the story line I liked it. Thats all I have to say about that...

Yesterday was a bust, had pink eye, stayed home from church and read my never ending alien ch. 3 in my textbook AND watched the Patriots lose to the dang Jets.

Anyway today is definitly feeling like a monday. Test tomorrow and wednesday. Oh boy.

Back in the saddle again...

So classes started today. Moved in last Thursday with the last of the 3 car loads of my stuff up here......haha I think I have just a little too much. Oh well! The roommates are great, all of them, they all are cute and different in there own way. Its never going to be boring in room 101. ;)

Anyway the move/transition was going great until Saturday morning, holy crap....I get in my wheelchair and the new cna is here to get trained, and I can't even sit in my chair. Basically I had to just go back to bed. After 2 hours of misery and messing with it, one of my dear roommates and my mom were able to get it working!

Had two classes today, a cooking type class and chemistry...........again......yeah, round 2 here I come.
Anyway, I feel good about it up here, I am ready for what comes.